Gok, do you know that I were teasing with the girl, it also seemed like she was playing back. How could you deem me as inappropriate if you didn't even get the context and the interlocutor didn't even feel that I should not say the things. If you thought I should not do what I did, you could just kindly remind me that you think it's inappropriate then I could comfortably adjust my behavior. But instead, by stalking from outside and cursorily get the context, you used the proverbial iron fist to a behavior that easily can be adjusted. What kind of society and living condition are you living in? is it so perfect or is it on another upscale level that I am too peasant to feel acquainted with? That you have never seen it, how people making fun or teasing with each other like that?
Yes, I'm living in the exact society - a third world country where people normally teasing like so. Maybe It has become a "bad habit" in your perspective. But It doesn't mean that I can not adjust my behavior to befit with the community. If you can trace back my chatting history, once, Ells remined me not saying the word "cracking" which to be honest I've seen native used it a lot on television. As a non-native, I've never understood why. But I did obey her suggestion no matter what because she was really kind to just pm and warned me instead of banning or muting right away. I did even remind one of my friend not saying the word once he's about to mention it.
I would not say this action would make me a better person, it's just that I am not a riffraff as you think I am. All that time I was trying to be comical, even when I wrote my verbose rhetorical pledge that day. But it looks like, living in an upscale society, having well-heeled friends make you are so condescending to me to use such words. I'm out of your league, but I do know the limits. Beside using those words that you think they are not suitable in your own perspective. I have never been a racist, faggot, bigot on the server which deserve much more punishment and to be considered. I did not even irrationally abuse and scold people like an uneducated. But you did really treated my like so.
Maybe you will say that I should move on. But how can I leave a bad image and the people that I've known without they're even aware of. I do really have some memorable times on it, some of the people I met, moments I got that I oftentimes recollect in my mind. It can not be moved on that easy. I don't know your situation, your condition you get, your highly educated friends you surround with, that you can understand what I'm trying to say. But if there is a tiny chance, please consider this situation. I will try to be the best person that I am supposed to be to meet your expectation.
